The music is fading.

Dear Marie,

While I still find my thoughts occupied by your words and your smile throughout the day and night, the music which you used to inspire has begun to fade. I used to hear melodies and harmonies and poetry flowing around the contours of my brain. My hands could barely keep up with all that my heart yearned to express.

Now, that energy is being replaced by confusion and sadness. The colors that I used to see have begun to dull. This life and my place in it have begun to seem entirely empty without you.

I never thought I would be the kind of person who needed someone else. I never wanted to rely on anyone. I always thought I would be able to do everything by myself and be happy alone. Every night that I lay down without wishing you sweet dreams is another step away from independence and a reminder that the only thing I truly love is you. Without you, I have no direction, no path. I'm stumbling around in the dark.

I miss you more each day and no matter how hard I try to move on, I'd sooner forget how to breathe than forget your touch. The touch of your hand in mine, and the touch of your heart on mine.

Listening to you speak from your most honest emotions has been the most moving experience of my life. Watching the lines of your face as you bore your secrets and your feelings to me has been like watching the architecture of my own soul constructed from nothing to a monument of grace and profundity.

You will remain in my heart for as long as it beats. It is fueled by your beauty and surges your energy through my body. I am nothing without you.